YMonday, May 29, 2006
came across this clip a few years back but apparently youtube still has it.
for those who didnt watch lotr i think you may find it a lil hard to understand.
for all who did, just note that jack black attached the ring to his... pls enjoy.
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YSaturday, May 27, 2006
so much has happened in the past week. so, so much. was blog-hopping and found out alot of people talking about the soccer-match (expected). hmmm. well, i watched it too on thursday. must say that it was quite an emotional match. when i saw mj fighting hard with 10 men against vj after they lost the lead, and yet all proved in vain, i felt a tear in my eye. "eh, you crying ah" "no la eye itchy". its heart-wrenching to see people who've worked so hard for their dreams just to fail in the end, when they had it all going smoothly. something which i hope wont happen to us in the canoeing finals. which brought me to think about something else. soccer finals was viewed by the whole school. and everyone watched everything, from the effort they put in, to the results they achieved. but who would watch us, the canoeing team? who would actually acknowledge our effort, did we train no harder than the soccer team? at the end of the day, the only difference between the periods before and after the finals would be, before finals: teacher says:"dun make canoeing excuse as not doing hw!", after finals:"now no more canoeing study harder". even if we won that medal and team award for mjc, who would actually truly admire us, like the soccer team? we are just a bunch of individuals training so hard for nothing. is that it??? sometimes i really wonder why we train... is it to gain glory and pride for mj? at the end of the day they dun even acknowledge or truly cherish our effort. but no, that shouldn't be the way. i know i shouldn't think this way. but it was just some personal insights. people dun understand our training and why we train, so SHUT UP damnit. k sorrie. wadever.
training these 2 days was highly intense. nothing much to say, 'cept fat whore and the bitch has come a long long way. we've improved tremenduosly, lets not stop here, carry on!
ok shall stop here, carry on tmr. shall rmb ya yun's words of wisdom during training, sounds so logical. "training is time for relaxation, a form of escape from studies" hmmm. i think such mentality works. sounds nicer than other quotes like "only psychos win" anyway. haha.
Song of the Day.
Blink 182 - I wanna fuck a dog in the ass
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outcasted, neglected, ignored, unloved.
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Name 20 people you can think of right now at the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 20 people. At the end tag at least 5 people.
1) yunqi
2) wayne
3) ivan
4) domy
5) zihui
6) ding qiang
7) brenda
8) lil joyce
9) big joyce
10) chuilaam
11) raymond
12) eekee
13) hongji
14) weikang
15) jonathan lim wei
16) jerreme
17) kerwin
18) zehou
19) shen yean
20) elton
Questions:
1. How did you meet 14(weikang)?
hmmm through canoeing? haha! DRAGON BROTHERS foeva~!!! roar. XD
2. What would you do if you've never met 1(yunqi)?
i'll go find her la! den. =D
3. What would you do if 20(elton) and 9(jie) dated?
i'll laugh till my pants drop, den pull it back up and laugh even harder. LOL.
4. Did you ever like 19(shen yean)?
yup and i love his cousins, french fries ;) k la k la i not gay ok?
5. Would 6(dq) and 17(kerwin) make a good couple?
maybe. i dunno. now singapore trend is going towards curvy (aka not straight) people. who knows? =X
6. Describe 3(ivan).
triple M.
Muscular. Mushroomy. Mad.
7. Do you think 8(lil joycie) is attractive?
=X heh. wad a qn. >.<" dun think noti all u ppl. zzz
8. Tell me something about 7(brenda).
hehe. wad to say. same as ivan lor... triple M.
Muggerish. Mad. Man.
9. Do you know any of 12(eekee)'s family?
no but i heard of his mom's cooking. heard it rocks =D
his bro also quite zhai.
his father also quite gian beng like him liddat.
10. What's 8(lil joycie)'s favourite?
how i know?! stop asking about her la! lol. probably hero or some white looking chap.
11. What would you do when 18(zehou) confesses that he/she likes you?
brenda will kill me since he's her "only true love" haha. but before that, i'll tell him. "aww zehou, that's so sweet. i know i know, i love me too =D".
12. What language(s) does 15(jonathan) speak?
caterpillar language. just like his faux "dragon". HAHA.
13. Who is 9(big joycie) going out with?
that's wad i would like to know too. hehe.
14. How old is 16(jerreme) now?
17? 18? sorrie dunno haha.
15. When was the last time you talked to 13(hongji)?
haha dunno probably thursday after soccer match. on our way to dinner.
16. What is 2(wayne)'s favourite band/singer?
i dunno. probably macarena or who let the dogs out by baha men. or some black singers or something. i think he likes tamil music too. bollywood singers are cool to him also. (no offence! hehhe.)
17. Would you ever date 4(dominic)?
wahahahhas dun wan. so guai lan. =X "dun wan dun wan lor.."
18. Would you ever date 7(brenda)?
.................................................. no comments, really.. not saying she's bad or anything............................... just untouchable, unthinkable, un-......... nvm lol! hehe =X
19. Is 15(jonny) single?
hahaha. everyone knows he loves his bugger. LOL.
20. What's 10(chuilaam)'s last name?
Zhu for pig! no la haha. chu lor. haha chu lu (reckless). but last name not chuilaam meh?? .
21. Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11(raymond)?
we are already in wad. having our gay affair aboard our love boat, "The Bitch" (aka The Ngiap).
22. What school does 3(ivan) go to?
dunno. probably some stupid school start with m one. treat students like dog one.
23. Where does 6(ding qiang) live?
haha punggol.
24. What's fav thing about 5(zihui)?
that she remembers people even though we seldomly talk! =D
5 people to be tagged: brenda, lil joycie, big joycie, ivan, dominic
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YSunday, May 21, 2006
Big Walk 2006. hmmm. was quite fun i guess (collecting all those free stuff which we got for the $4 ticket). other than that just had a great b!tching session with domy & eeks, about 4 hours in macs. dun scold us for not walking! i walk every year k! and this week i already ran more 20km of sprints already (not exaggerating, seriously), my legs need a break!
after that took a long while to decide where to go, but settled for bugis in the end. so sad, didnt take neoprints with the rest since i left earli, but bo bian la, so late already, and i think i'll onli spoil the pic la =( haiz. im an outcast. hard to accept but i know i must.
dunno where im heading, dunno how to start, clueless.
Song of the Day.
Howie Day - Africa (Accoustic)
hear the drums echoing tonight...
she is only whispers of some quiet conversation...
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i enjoyed spending the whole afternoon just sitting there,
carressing your hand gently,
feeling the genteel touch of your hand against my rough fingers,
then hugging you gently =)
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YSaturday, May 20, 2006
long time since i last posted. but then again, it has indeed been an eventful week.
i quit track, to please my partner and miss lim, and also because it clashed with canoeing nationals. but i'm still gonna break that 800m timing before track nationals.
last night attended the band concert with the class and joyces, great job tritri & wj! first concert i didn't fall asleep k, not like domy & ngiap-ngiap! lol. hope to hear you guys again one day in the future, it was a blast =)
today's training was quite good, although i felt like the programme was the slackest we've had in a long while. but as long as we push ourselves (and we did), the programme how slack will also become shiong one, wahhahahahs~!!! just the way i like it.
tomorrow going big walk with the class. stupid wayne got tuition, so not going... zzz which leaves just me domy and eekee with the girls. and eekee the dao kia also never reply. hope he's going, lol. maybe after that go watch movie or something, since it's been a long while since we last did. then can go meet her.
i miss you. =)
it felt so strange, so foreign, so... unexplanable. and yet, it was so real.
Song of the Day.
Anti-Flag - Die For Your Government
You gotta die, gotta die, gotta die for your government...
Die for your country like shit.
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YTuesday, May 16, 2006
today's not a very happy day. had chem test, which would require a paramount amount of luck to pass. played soccer bare-footed, now my whole foot is full of blisters. went for track training, and it was quite good. in the midst of changing my technique, and hope to get my spikes soon. hopefully i can start to seriously shave off my timing soon. interval training and fart leg are pretty effective actually. but now after going home, i realised that my 800m final would clash with the finals for my canoeing event with raymond. obviously if i were to be so lucky to get into both, i would most definitely, without question, go for canoe. but i can only get into such a desired situation if i continue training hard, and push myself even harder. hmmm haven't seen my partner these few days, wonder where he's been and how's he doing. anyway tomorrow there's training so he'd better get his ass down hahaha if not maybe will have to take t2 with cz since ivan isnt going down (should be quite fun paddling with a fellow psycho). but knowing raymond, he wouldn't miss training for the world. i hope. lol.
despite 800m final being on the same day, im gonna heck care and still go train for it. i just wanna get into the finals, then we'll see. if i back out, i can at least say:" hey, at least i managed to get in right?"
so my new training schedule has just arrived:
Monday: Gym training + fart leg running programme
Tuesday: Track interval training
Wednesday: Canoeing water training
Thursday: Gym training + fart leg running programme
Friday: Track interval training
Saturday: Canoeing water training
Sunday: Official Mugging Day (OMD)
miss lim told me something quite inspirational a few days back. i commented that some people were psychos, and it was truly motivating to watch them. and she added:" only psychos are able to win." how true.
im not a psycho yet... no not yet.. i'm not done with you just yet...
Song of the Day.
ACDC - Thunderstruck
THUNDER... THUNDER~!!!
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you've got it all so, so fucking wrong...
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YMonday, May 15, 2006
hmmm today had econs test. hopefully can pass. studies wise i think im going back to square 1. need to work on it.
spent an hour trying to persuade kerwin to take up 1500 with me. i made it sound as if im so confident we could make it to the finals after intensive training, but now after training im starting to doubt my own words. it seems as if i was just so... naive, when i was writing out my race plans. and im still deciding if im gonna sign up, by tomorrow latest.
training was good today. after seeing all the girls get such good achievements in yesterday's competition, one can't help but feel that he is expected to do the same; do as well, if not better. so pushed myself to the max. and ran 4 sets of fart leg. first 2 was with ivan, wayne and kenneth. did quite well, was quite impressed by their determination at certain points of time. hope they would go mental soon too. next 2 sets with dharma, weikang, jonathan, vasin, cz was tough. 1st 400 won, but i believe that's bcoz they didnt put in full. subsequently next 2 sets of 200m got 2nd.. the next 400m i just couldn't take it and i fell off at the 200m mark, my body system rejecting the lunch i had just half an hour before training. but i kept it in, despite how disgusting it sounds. thanks jon for being there. and then i swiftly picked myself up to run the next 2 sets of 200. won the 1st 200m but only coz they were tired from the 400. last one got 2nd. nice work dharma. jon had some health problems too but he knew how to handle them quite well i must add.
tomorrow there's still track training if i wanna attend. not sure how much more my body can take it. my heart no longer beats normally (too much cardio perhaps), but strangely my legs feel rather fine. but my mind isn't strong enough. it has to be more psycho.
miss lim said some stuff which were quite hurtful to me. she told wk that i might as well just join track n field. canoeing is currently the most essential neccessity of my life, and that isn't gonna change anytime in the near future, until atleast after the nationals. running isn't gonna make me any less committed to canoeing. i don't even like running. i just like the feeling when you're lagging behind a person, and you max out, defeating the person eventually. but weikang is sick. i can't catch him when he's serious. i can't do anything. sometimes one can really feel so fucking useless. i cant run as fast as zehou in long d, weikang in short d. cant do as many pull-ups as bryan, jonathan, wayne, ivan, dharma, cz. cant be as bright as cz, ya yun. cant be as psycho as cz and weikang and the rest who have been really psycho but aren't as noticed. and last but not least, i cant be a good partner to raymond, whole day make him angry. dunno la. i really wanna do well in canoeing, not just for myself, but also for raymond. do something for the stupid school which doesn't recognize any contributions, do something significant in this lifetime of mine. do something which at least my parents will feel proud of, rather than them just scolding me all day long. i know they find me slack and useless. and all the teachers in the school. i bet they all think that way. but as i said, no one really understands wad its like to be in our shoes. many find it meaningless, training so hard. i read so many people's blog and find the word stressful. it has become such a useless word. so i shan't use it. currently, life is fulfilling. there are goals in life. at long last.
my mind just isn't strong enough..
Song of the Day.
The Ataris - The Saddest Song (Acoustic)
so i pretend... im doing all i can..
and hope someday you'll bind it in your heart..
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YSaturday, May 13, 2006
ytd was quite a happy-sad day. sad coz i screwed up training, sorry ivan and cz... happy coz miss lim agreed. happy coz i took a k2 with dharma, and fought the elements with him. hahaha! "best experience in my life", oh shut up ivan =X jac's boat was spoilt, dunno thanks to dharma or bryan, but helped her to drill some holes in miss lim's boat to suit her for... oh crap its today, juz rmb-ed, gotta ask weikang their results later. anyways, went to get a haircut, and now its super short. slept at 9 and woke up ard now, 11 am...
later gonna study, so now must blog first coz come back still mugging since got sooo many tests... im SO not gonna fail another test. no. all the way to mid-yrs and past it. im not gonna screw up my canoeing comp too. no im not. gonna beat that 2.18 even if my arms break. and im so so so not gonna screw up track. gonna pia that 2.10 and faster even if my legs break. then i'll be limbless. but it doesnt matter, no it doesnt. was talking to jerreme, and as usual it became talking about girls. but no. im not gonna let girls screw up an important part of my life this time. nono not again. for this 2 months i'll be a disciplined monk. not that im gonna shave my head, weikang XD but yeah. i need to concentrate here. there are targets to be met and i WILL meet them.
yep that's right.
when the time comes, we'll show the world our hunger.
and shock them with it, leaving their mouths hanging open.
Song of the Day.
We Are Scientists - The Great Excape
im making my escape, making my escape,
tell myself that everything's in shape, everything's in shape
but me, how long can this take, how long can this take,
tell myself that everything's is great, everything is great.
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YFriday, May 12, 2006
its friday... and mother's day is supposed to be on sunday! but celebrated it today anyways. so everyone came over and had fun watching toy story with the rest, felt like it was back in the past... when we were still kids and stuff... now it just feels so... different.
had a quarrel with raymond on our boat this morning. he mentioned:" we might as well end our partnership today, right now." that kind of hurt me, although it sounds realli gay. coz he turned around halfway through our set and started shouting about my strokes... but i was realli putting in the 100%... i juz couldnt grasp enough in that c-stroke... after how many hundreds of them le... we juz kept going off course... dunno la.. oh well i was quite glad we apologised to each other after that. and miss lim taught us a very valuable lesson:" i need you 2 to trust each other. trust that both are putting in the best effort, and don't blame them for any fault, bcoz you might be the one who's doing it wrong." c'mon bitch (our boat's name), we'll get the medal this time.
tmr there's optional training... dharma:" c'mon la laiguang, lets go! can take with me..." T1... its been a long while... not sure if i'll go though, 4th day consecutvely training, but it'd be a good chance to ask miss lim about jerreme's offer. not sure if i can handle it, but i realli want to. i wont let it affect my studies and canoeing. no it wont. but i'll still work hard for it. but if miss lim doesn't allow i won't push for it den. after all raymond isn't too agreeable on it. "ok lor i dun care le. if miss lim agree den u can go!" lol everyone's sure that she won't allow la wth. so sad.
quite sad... failed my first test since block test... F for chem, though i know i didnt put in as much effort as the rest, the feeling juz sucks... anyway juz to remind myself... here are the results so far...
Maths(class test) -A
Maths(stats) - E
Econs(case study) - C
Econs(unemployment essay) - B
Chem(Nmr & thermo) - D
Chem(electrochem) - F
i'm gonna do it... no matter how impossible it sounds...
that 15 seconds... even if i break my legs i'll break that timing first...
Song of the Day.
Blindside - Sleepwalking
PS: sorry im to lazy to upload this song. dun d/l it if u dun have it alr. few ppl appreciate it.
sleep this time tonight...
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in some times of my life...
i juz wanna be left alone...
in others, i wanna know that...
out there, there's someone who cares...
but nobody does.
and although it remains a fact...
i cant let it affect anything.
im going through with this...
im gonna do it.
PS: sorry shir... so so sorry. get well soon.
goodbye.
your blood stains my hands...
and yet there was no regret...
in killing you.
not looking back, and yet not looking ahead.
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YWednesday, May 10, 2006
interesting day i had today. school was fine and all, since it was a late and short day, only 1 tutorial somemore. training was tough as usual, 4 on 1 off 8 sets. but can really feel as if we're improving.. we tested our 500m in our last set, and it was 2.25min, improve by quite alot since the last time. but there's still room for more i guess. miss lim was quite pissed with us today, guess we should change our attitude den. and thanks hongzhi and ur uncle for the lift~!
jerreme asked me something today. i dunno if i would agree, but i really do want to. but the chance of getting anything out of it is... hmmm... but its the experience im after anyway rite lol! so it doesn't matter. yet again, its so close to midyrs and canoeing nationals. raymond told me:" laiguang i don't want you to do it. i'll be frank. i don't want you to do it." Raymond, forgive me if i do.. i'm so sorry.
sometimes we gotta do what we feel like doing..
Song of the Day.
Dashboard Confessionals - Age Six Racer
So long sweet summer,
I stumbled upon you and gratefully basked in your rays.
So long sweet slumber.
I fell into you now you're gracefully falling away.
Hey thanks, thanks for that summer.
It is cold where your going
I hope that your heart is always warm.
I gave you the best that I had.
You pased on my letters
& passed on the best that I had.
I hate the winter in Lexington.
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YMonday, May 08, 2006
hmmm fitness test today did quite badly... oh well mostly improved except benchpull and pull-ups... kena owned by abel... zehou... lol but wads new huh.
*no thanks to me huh i guess. since i didnt pay for the bag yet. am i supposed to?*
juz played finish gunbound... was winning all the way with a noob team... until a dragon came onto my team we lose all the way... stupid noob dragon...
now my parents juz came home... mom says later going to school... zzz
i'm so gonna win you.
Song of the Day.
Damien Rice - Amie
nothing unusual, nothing strange,
comes to nothing at all...
the same old scenario, the same old rain,
and there's no explosions here...
then something unusual, something strange,
comes from nothing at all...
i saw a spaceship, fly by your window,
did you see it disappear...
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One day... I will catch you... i will outrun, right past you... I will win you... and when I do... I will not laugh at you... nor humiliate you... no I won't... I will not insult you nor get lost in my own complacency of having defeated you... no... instead... I will complete the race... and when I do... I will turn around, stoop down onto my drooping knees right before your magnanimous presence... and thank you for being the motivation, the inspiration, my idol... the one who made me the psycho I am on that fateful day... you will be the one who stretched me beyond all limits... in my persistent attempt to catch up to you... and run alongside you... you taught me to race against myself... gave me a chance, an opportunity... to believe that maybe, perhaps once in awhile... dreams do come true... I will then be able to share such an experience with others... and when they finally do achieve their dreams... I will tell them... for now, enjoy, as best as you can, the fruits of your labour... and never forget those who have stood by you in times of your deepest hours... those who've lived in your sanctuary... most importantly, of great essentiality, embrace your opponent whom you've so longingly desired to defeat... in tears of sincerity, convey in the least offending tone, how grateful you are to them... for their presence gave rise to there being such an event which came about that fateful day... for them letting you create, experience, and acheive that meaningful... aspiration.
but the race doesn't end here... no it doesn't... there are many more laps waiting to be completed... and I will complete them... no matter who there is left to defeat... I will win them... I will win them even if both my legs break under such decadence and ill-conditioning... even when my lungs burst from a lack of air... even when my heart stops beating after being overworked... I will take a knife, and slice an opening on the area above my heart... take it out, and pump it with my own hands... I will do this while running... and show to the world... what the word "determination" actually means... it is a point whereby a person has reached a mental state which allows it to surpass all physical capabilities... and reach out above its potential... and when they watch me complete my race... as they watch how i trample across the finishing line... as they see how my body, after undergoing such strenuous exercise... I shall fall... die... but there aren't and will never be, any regrets... for I may now pass away, resting peacefully... people will watch me die smiling... and I wish they'd smile for me too.
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YSaturday, May 06, 2006
hmm.. last nite didnt post coz was too tired... fell asleep watching the boring elections crap... when i woke up around 4+ i saw my bro sleeping on the couch next to me too... guess it must've been really boring and crappy... oh well had training in the morning, quite xiong i guess (resistance + interval training).. but can realli feel oneself improving. after that went to bugis with aunty MA and rayray for lunch... raymond left us after dat to meet his frenz while dharma and i headed towards queensway...
at queensway... we walked and walked and walked AND walked... 3+ hours walking sia... and we spent 2 at the same shop... couldnt choose which shoes we each wanted. at one point of time we both wanted ds-trainer.. but only got one design den if both buy abit gay... so i finally set my eyes on the perfect shoe... ds-racer... woot and so dat was wad i bought. dharma still couldnt choose between his ds-trainer, generacer, and hyperspeed.. lol in the end he juz bought the ds-trainer... so.. wad can i say? MONEY WELL SPENT, WAHAHHAHAHAHS~!!! watch me fly during cooper's test on monday, haha OOPS.
when going home.. had to wait for the stupid bus 14 for more than half an hour... zzz by the time i reached home it was 9.15 la wth... den fell asleep around 10, woke up today around 12.45.. quite a nice sleep if i may add. although i had a nightmare, whereby when i first wore my shoes on monday, some stupid girl stepped on it and made a hole in it. pray dat doesn't happen, it wasn't cheap.
i know that i thought that the time and the distance between us made you so much stronger...
i carry the world on my shoulders...
Song of the Day.
With Broken Wings - A Beautiful Tragedy.
Tragedy...
i hear the cry, but i dun see the reason to which, this cry should leave me too..
a tragedy.. a crowd gathers as where i should carry out my tragedy...
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YFriday, May 05, 2006
couldnt post the past week coz stupid blogger put some spam prevention stuff on my blog
went to watch MI3 with the guys. eeks couldnt come coz miss liu called his parents up. and she also called mine la. zzz. 8 times late... onli ar... she should be happy le mah... and not entirely my fault also wad... suddenly no one to send me to school. wad u wan me to do... lol but nvm la onli ask them go see discipline comm so should be ok. think my mom quite shock coz teacher call her when she's overseas... but she sounded quite cheerful i think. "see den see lor". lol wad can i say. so "on" ar mom. =D
i'm still waiting... in the shadows... always waiting.
Song of the Day.
Dashboard Confessionals: Jamie
You are the most, you're so rad, you're so fresh
And I'm so glad I am yours, you are mine
Show me where and I will sign
When I was down, you came to me
And promised you'd always be
By my side, now you're gone
And I'm waiting, waiting
Jamie, oh Jamie, I'm so glad you're mine
We'll be together a long time
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YMonday, May 01, 2006
What kind of bf/gf are you?((with pix))
romantic
You are the perfect boyfriend/girlfriend...you know just they way to be in a relationship! Don't change anything and good luck!
Quizzes by myYearbook.com -- the World's Biggest Yearbook!
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