YMonday, May 08, 2006
One day... I will catch you... i will outrun, right past you... I will win you... and when I do... I will not laugh at you... nor humiliate you... no I won't... I will not insult you nor get lost in my own complacency of having defeated you... no... instead... I will complete the race... and when I do... I will turn around, stoop down onto my drooping knees right before your magnanimous presence... and thank you for being the motivation, the inspiration, my idol... the one who made me the psycho I am on that fateful day... you will be the one who stretched me beyond all limits... in my persistent attempt to catch up to you... and run alongside you... you taught me to race against myself... gave me a chance, an opportunity... to believe that maybe, perhaps once in awhile... dreams do come true... I will then be able to share such an experience with others... and when they finally do achieve their dreams... I will tell them... for now, enjoy, as best as you can, the fruits of your labour... and never forget those who have stood by you in times of your deepest hours... those who've lived in your sanctuary... most importantly, of great essentiality, embrace your opponent whom you've so longingly desired to defeat... in tears of sincerity, convey in the least offending tone, how grateful you are to them... for their presence gave rise to there being such an event which came about that fateful day... for them letting you create, experience, and acheive that meaningful... aspiration.
but the race doesn't end here... no it doesn't... there are many more laps waiting to be completed... and I will complete them... no matter who there is left to defeat... I will win them... I will win them even if both my legs break under such decadence and ill-conditioning... even when my lungs burst from a lack of air... even when my heart stops beating after being overworked... I will take a knife, and slice an opening on the area above my heart... take it out, and pump it with my own hands... I will do this while running... and show to the world... what the word "determination" actually means... it is a point whereby a person has reached a mental state which allows it to surpass all physical capabilities... and reach out above its potential... and when they watch me complete my race... as they watch how i trample across the finishing line... as they see how my body, after undergoing such strenuous exercise... I shall fall... die... but there aren't and will never be, any regrets... for I may now pass away, resting peacefully... people will watch me die smiling... and I wish they'd smile for me too.
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